Stupid Single sister that received Favour

 MY CHOICE (PART 11)

Sis Grace called me when she noticed I am okay. Nifemi, she called me and i replied saying I am with her. Sis Grace continued. Nifemi, why are you using sex toy?  What are you using it for? Why are you not opened?  Why do you like to keep things to yourself?  You are passing through this terrible thing and you did not bother telling Kunle nor share it with me that you are even living with. What kind of relationship do you keep with Kunle that you cannot trust him to share things with him to the extent that you almost lost your baby. If not because God intervened, what do you think would have happened. You see pelumi, there is no solution to a problem you keep to yourself. I started crying, but she persuaded me to talk. Sis Grace, it is not my wish to masturbate neither is it my wish to have my baby killed, just that I don't know what you will feel about me if I tell you i'm masturbating and moreover, I've once shared it with a sister in my course of service but no help showed forth. Thank God I did not lose the baby even though I wished I lost the baby because I don't want to give birth to a child that has not father. I am not happy with my life, I am in the time of sorrow and tribulations that I have caused myself because of my choice of man. Sis Grace calmed me and promised to be of help to me. She packed my things to her room and said we will be sleeping together. I was happy but at the same time sad because I am the first born of my family and my parents are expecting me to come home to share the good news about my service to them, they are expecting me to bring my man home to prepare for my wedding. We finished talking and she went out to do some chores while I picked up my bible to study. 

I was happy on a very good morning when Bro Kunle called me that he's on his way. He came back late and there was no time for us to talk because he wouldnt want to disturb me and my baby. I was surprised when I checked what Bro Kunle brought  for me, it was baby things he brought for me as if it is time for delivery. He also bought me new clothes and shoes of which pelumi has never done to me before. Pelumi only gives me money when I needed or request for it then I thought for a while and  wept in my heart that Bro Kunle may not dress well but sincerely i'm seeing him having a good character than Pelumi. This time I did not pray to God to make me his wife but I pray he will get married to God's will for his life. My will has led me into hell on earth because it is not in line with God's will. 

It was in a afternoon, we we're relaxing in the sitting room, Bro Kunle was sitting very close to me and the destroying urge for sex started again, I don't know what to do and it was this  time Bro Kunle moved closer to me to discuss with me. When I noticed I could not hold it again, I went inside the room and started praying to God. I prayed for about 30minutes before this urge stopped, it was then I realized the minutes I use in masturbating. I went back to the sitting room and I saw Bro Kunle praying, I joined him in the prayer and we both prayed together. 

We finished the prayer and Bro Kunle told me he knows the reason why I went inside and that is why I met him praying. He told me the only solution to the problem of masturbation is to abstain from what can make me have the urge and ask God to help me. The worst and scaring word he said was that we have to call my parent and inform them about what happened. I rejected the opinion at first but was later convinced to call them. 

The following day, Bro Kunle picked up his phone and put a call through to my mom. He put the call on speaker so I will be able to hear their discussions. He greeted and and explain what happened to my mom, but my mom kept quite for long and end the call.

To Be Continued....... 

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MY CHOICE (PART 12)

Finally my mom called back, but this time she called me. I was scared to pick the call, then I give the phone to Bro Kunle to speak with her. He picked the call and give the phone back to me to talk to her. I collected the phone and decide to keep quite to hear the tone of her voice. My mom called my name, Nifemi, why do you decide the keep the whole thing from me? Moreover I am your mother, I won't kill you if you tell me, I can only get angry and that's all, I will try to explain to your father and will come check on you tomorrow, How is your baby doing? She ask, I answered and end the call because I cannot bear the shame and pain, I know the kind of mother I have, I know she may decide to be gentle because of my condition and I know she will still pour out her anger on me. I started crying 😭😭 and tears started rolling down my cheeks because the image of what happened keep coming to my mind and it's making me have bad thoughts towards myself. Bro Kunle pet me and put my head on his shoulder to stop me from crying. Again, the thought of getting married to someone like Kunle keep rolling in my heart. Immediately my senses comes back and I said to myself Lord if it is your will for me to marry Bro Kunle let it happen.

Bro Kunle took me out to buy some things for me because he will be going back in two days and also took me to an eatery to eat. I felt like I'm on top of the world, I've never felt this way before. While eating bro Kunle started lecturing me and said if a guy is caring to you, that doesn't mean the guy want to date you, don't be infatuated by what you see and leave what is within. You can see love through action, what about love from within? Don't use physical things you see to judge if a guy loves you or not, the best way is to let God choose for you. Even, God may not show you the guy but by the time he will come you will receive confirmations that truly this is the will of God. Don't take lust for love, don't take caring for love. 

We got home, Bro Kunle told me to pick my bible, we read some verses and we begin to pray, I've never felt like this in place of prayer before, but I know God is going to do something. We finish praying and Bro Kunle pick up his bible again and told me to read Romans 8 from verse 1 to the end. While he was reading, I picture myself as someone who needs the help of the Holy Spirit to help my infirmities and I have not received the bondage of fear. I took my bible and went in to pray.

That night I had a dream, I saw Pelumi crying to me for help, immediately I saw his friends coming with Cutlass and said Pelumi is not going anywhere, he will be use for sacrifice since he want to quit from cultism. I pleaded on his behalf but they did not answer. Then one of his friends said " Yes you are the one, my eyes cannot deceive me, you are Pelumi's fiance who we slept with during your service, oh you think you can escape, don't you know since we have an intercourse with you, there is a mark on you that you are part of us.  I knew it that you will go ahead to tell what happened to your friends. Because you have done this, we are going to kill both of you today. I pleaded and told them to please have mercy on my unborn child. But instead, he told me since my child is for Pelumi, the baby is also initiated automatically. Then I shouted, No, my baby is for God and not for darkness. The guy brought out his Cutlass and I started running away from him. It got to a stage I was tired and sweating profusely, then one of the guy came to my back and raise up the Cutlass to kill me and I shouted Jesus!!!

To be continued...

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MY CHOICE (PART 13)

I woke up, I took my bible and pray over the dream. In the morning, I receive a call from my mom that she's on her way to my where I'm staying. I quickly standup, do the house chores, inform Bro Kunle and I went to the Kitchen to prepare something for her. I finished cooking and a thought came to my heart that my mom is not coming for food but for me. I quickly went in to my room to pray that the Lord should take over the meeting and give them peace before they get to my place. I called Bro Kunle and told him about the dream I had and he told me we need to pray for Pelumi and the baby, what scared me most was that he once they are able to kill Pelumi, the child will die automatically because of the blood attached. We fasted and pray that day and the prayer was done continually. 

Knock! Knock!! Knock!!! I heard someone knock at the door, I opened the door and my mom come in. She was surprised to see me heavy already and she knew that the delivery time is near. She greeted me and told me my Dad is waiting for me outside, I told Bro Kunle to help me bring him inside because I'm scared to look at his face because of the shame and disappointment, but mom told me to bring him in myself and that's the reason why he's still waiting outside. I went outside, I saw my Dad carrying my bag of clothes I left at home. I knelt down and greet him, but instead my Dad raise me up and hug me, he said to me that he's sorry for what happened to me. I ask him why he have to apologise to me, Dad said he has seen it coming but he never took it serious. I pet my Dad and said what happen has happened, it is now my past. I took the bag from my Dad and took him inside, I carried the bag inside and praise God for answering my prayers for peace to reign. I went out to meet them in the sitting room, my mom spoke, likewise my Dad and Pelumi, I also say the things I have to say and we end the discussion there. Pelumi told my parents that he will be leaving tomorrow, my mom prayed for him and appreciate him for everything he has done for me, my mom told him I will have to stay with his sister for a while till I give birth and start a job. I stood up and take my way to the kitchen then I felt a sharp pain in my stomach, I thought it was because of the fasting, I quickly went to the kitchen to drink water, but the pain keep coming and getting much, I went to the sittingroom to tell my mom about the pain. My mom told Pelumi to pack the baby things , but I told my mom it is not time for delivery, the pregnancy is not up to nine months, but my mom said it is not Everytime the baby that will come that nine month, it is possible it comes months before or after. I was taken to the hospital, but this time the pain is getting worst, then I called Bro Kunle to come and pray for me.   I was in labour for 3 days and there was nothing to show forth, Bro Kunle could not go back nor could my mom go back home, it was my Dad that went home to bring her some clothes. I begin to cry to God not to allow the dream I had have it way in my life. It got to a stage I prayed to God to save my child and take me to himself because the pain is too much for me to bear.

Few minutes later, I heard the doctor said they are going to operate the baby to be able to save the baby and save me from the pains, my mom took the papers and sign😭😭 for the doctor to start the operation. I cried unto God and said even if I will die He should forgive me and take me home. I remembered my best hymn when I was still in the fellowship, Hymn 173A, then I begin to sing;

"My God beholdeth me thy child

Show thy wonderful love to me

Leave me not alone to my way 

For thou art my sole counselor

Chorus: Lead me through this world my Father, let enough thy salvation be.

I sang the song with my last strength in pains😭😭😭.

I sang the song thrice and I felt a hand touch me and said to me now is the time for me to leave the pains of this world, the troubles of this world and he said come into the joy of your Father. He took me up gradually, I was happy to be with him because I felt the peace and joy of following Him. I looked down and saw my body still lying down on the bed, what shocked me was that down there I am pregnant and up here I am not, then I realized that I've given up the ghost. 

To be continued....

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